Hey CARL!

Reading your response meant more to me than I can put into words. I was never sure if you’d find this space, let alone take the time to write back. But you did—and knowing that my words gave you even a little bit of comfort makes everything worth it.

I never wanted to make you feel uneasy, and I’m sorry if I did. I can only imagine how it must feel to receive something so out of the blue. But please know this—nothing I’ve written comes from a place of expectation. I don’t need you to respond or to figure out who I am right away. I just wanted to create something for you, something that exists without pressure, a quiet place where my thoughts about you could live.

As for the picture… it’s from your Instagram Live, way back on November 18, 2022. You might not remember much from the past, but I do. I’ve been admiring you for a long time, from afar. Not in a way that demands anything—just in a way that sees you, appreciates you, and hopes you’re doing okay.

You said you hope I find the courage to come up to you one day. I hope so too. But for now, this is how I’ll introduce myself—through this space, this little corner I made just for you. I don’t know how to update you when I write something new, but I’ll use this ngl link so you’ll always know when there’s an entry waiting for you.

Thank you for being here. And more than that—thank you for being you. —From someone who has been quietly rooting for you, always.

P.S. I'm working on adding a 'Poems' section soon for the poems I've written for you. I’ll also be changing the layout of the 'Letters' section and adding more sections over time. I’m not sure how to update you, but that’s okay—if you see this, well… you've seen it! Hahaha.❤

Hey!

Just a quick update before I finally get some rest—The Letters section is fully set up now, and so is the chat box! That means if you ever feel like leaving a message, you can.

I don’t know if you’ll ever type something in, but just the thought of it being possible makes me feel a little closer to you..

Also… please don’t be mad at me if you find me annoying for sending different links over the past few days. This is the only way I can communicate with you,

and honestly, the website keeps crashing every time I make a new one. I never get the chance to recover it, and each time I start over, it happens again.

I really hope this final link lasts long enough so I can keep updating you here.

That’s all for now. I think I can finally get some sleep. Hope you see this. Hope you’re doing okay.

Have a nice day, Carl. Take care, always.

YAHO!!

Hey, it's been a while. I'm really sorry for the long pause in updates—I’ve been caught up with school and everything, but I still find a way to come back here, to you.

I’ve added new letters and poems, thoughts I’ve been holding onto, waiting for the right moment to spill. Maybe you’ll never read them, but they exist, just like this space for you does.
And there’s something new—a Music section.

Lately, I’ve been listening to PinkPantheress a lot, especially her album. Every time I hear it, I think of you. There’s something in her sound, in the way it loops like a memory—soft, fleeting, yet lingering. She’s dropping a new album in May, and you already know I’ll be listening.

Again, sorry for the silence.
I hope you’ve been doing okay. I hope your days have been kind to you. Take care! ❤

Hey… It’s been a while, hasn’t it?

I’m really, truly sorry for the long pause in updates. Life swept me away for a while—school, responsibilities, moments that demanded more of me than I expected. I didn’t mean to go quiet, especially not here, not in this little space where I always come back to you.

Still, even in the chaos, my thoughts wandered here. Often. Quietly, in the middle of lectures, during late-night walks, or those moments before sleep when the heart grows soft—I’d find myself thinking about this place, about the words I hadn’t yet shared. And you.

During the past few weeks, I’ve been on vacation. A pause, yes, but never from you. Even if I wasn’t posting, I was still writing. In my notes app, Words that waited for the right moment to be given a voice. Letters that carried pieces of me.

Poems stitched together with longing. They’ve just been waiting patiently in the quiet corners of my phone, tucked away like secrets I was hoping you’d stumble upon someday.

Maybe you’ll read them. Maybe you won’t. But they’re there. They exist because you exist in my heart. And that’s more than enough reason.

I want you to know that this silence was never a goodbye. Just a pause. Just life getting a little too loud. But now, I’m here again. With more to say. More to offer. More pieces of myself to leave behind in words.

I hope you’ve been doing okay.

I hope the days have been gentle, or at least, that you’ve had moments of peace between the storms. Wherever you are right now, I’m wishing you light And love. And everything is good.

Please take care of yourself, always.

And thank you—for still being here, even in the quiet.

Ohayooo!!!

Just wanted to drop a little update—after three weeks of rebuilding, the site’s finally up again. It’s taken time, but I really wanted to make it feel like a space you could wander through, slowly and curiously.

There’s a special password now (just for you), and I’ve scattered a bunch of filtered selfies around—some are goofy, some are kind of shy. You’ll also find a spot where my pets live on the page now. They’ve been waiting to say hi.

I’m still working on the “Me” section—there’s more I want to say, when the words are ready. And more poems, more letters, more pieces of me are on their way to you.

I’ve been thinking about you—hoping that life’s been kind, or at the very least, giving you little pockets of calm amidst the mess. Wherever you are right now, I’m quietly sending warmth your way—light, ease, and whatever you need most.

Be gentle with yourself.

And thank you—for showing up, even in silence.