"A Love Unexpected"

My sweet Carl,
It feels impossible to articulate this in any way other than as fate’s serendipity, as if our meeting was a beautiful, unintentional twist of destiny.
I’ve met you by mistake, or perhaps it’s that the universe had long planned this encounter for us, and it took its time to lead us here.
The first time I ever laid eyes on you, something deep inside stirred — I just knew that you would play a monumental role in my life.
There was nothing tangible to prove that gut feeling, only the quiet certainty that whispered through me.

From that day, my heart began to grow fonder of yours, little by little, with each passing day. Every single day, it felt as though I discovered more reasons to love you, even if I never dared to say it aloud.
I kept this love, wrapped in silence, kept it in the corners of my heart where only the echoes of my feelings could breathe.

But there’s always been something I never said — something that’s remained locked away, perhaps because of everything that has happened between us.
I was never able to tell you how I really felt. I’ve kept my words hidden, a secret I never dared to share, fearing they would get lost in the spaces between us.
The world around us didn’t understand — every single person said I should stay away from you, warned me that you were no good for me.
Yet, despite all of that, despite all of their doubts and their judgments, I’ve loved you for the simple beauty of who you are.

I love you for every single atom you’re made of. Your essence, your being — all of it, deeply and irrevocably.
You are a part of me now, in a way that goes beyond words. You are forever with me, woven into the very fabric of my soul, as I am with you.
A piece of your heart will always be held by me, and in the quietest parts of me, a piece of mine will always belong to you.

And yet, despite this love, there are shadows that linger. The pain, the distrust, the miscommunication — they cloud what should be the purest of connections.
These obstacles, they make the love feel heavy, as though no matter how much I love, it can never be enough to overcome the silence that stands between us.
I wish I could talk to you about it, I wish we could finally find a way to fix the broken pieces.
There’s so much I wish, so much that I just know will never happen, and that uncertainty stirs something within me — a longing that cuts through everything else.

More than anything, my deepest sorrow is the thought of seeing you hurt. I’d hate to see you in pain or unhappy.
The idea of it is a weight on my heart that I can’t release, a burden I carry silently.
Even though I’ve never had the privilege of meeting you face to face, Carl, I feel like you are one of the sweetest humans I’ve ever encountered.
A soul that, despite the struggles and the barriers, deserves all the love and happiness this world has to offer.
You are worthy of it all, and my heart aches with the desire for you to have it.

No matter how much time slips by, and no matter where life’s unpredictable roads may take us, know that you are never far from my thoughts.
If there ever comes a moment when you think you need me, I will be there.
Even if time and distance keep us apart, I will always be right there, ready to offer whatever support I can give, whenever you need it.

But for now, I know that we must take separate paths. It might take some time for me to come to terms with it, but for now, we need to go our separate ways.
Life’s timing is cruel sometimes, and we must follow where it leads, even when it pulls us apart.
But even in this separation, I know that no distance could ever truly separate our hearts. The love we share will remain in the quiet spaces, always waiting to return when the time is right.

Until then,You are always loved. And if ever you feel lost, if ever you wonder where I am, remember that I’ll be thinking of you, wishing you all the peace and joy you deserve.

April 4,2025